18 August

First time of mine, feeling that the time passed so slow.

It's first time of mine, feeling that life is so tiring.

Living in the states is not really that fun, I realized that when i was got stuck in the Chicago airport.

Being blocked by the officer makes me understand that I left my home country and now I'm in other people's country.

Having the life here makes me feel that living at home is really sweet.

It's like honeymoon when living at home, u no need to worry this or worry that, and everything will be done and prepared by parents. You can do whatever things you like and your parents will always pampered you and bear with you.

All these doesn't work out here. Here, I have to get everything done by myself, no matter it's living stuff or my academic stuff. No one will tells you that, "Dear, dinner ready~", "Dear, time to wake up~". My parents used to do that when i was in Malaysia and everytime while they were doing that, I would feel like Yayaya, I'm big enough to decide when to eat when to wake up.

But, after I came here, I miss those time. Those time when they were reminding me of eating dinner, time when they were pulling me out from my bed, time when they were mumbling nonstop, time when we were spending together.

Living here is really tiring, especially when you have to take all the necessary stuffs you bought in the mart with only your two hands and bring them home by taking buses for 2 times.

Dorm is like so far away from the campus area and I can hardly go back dorm for a moment and then back to campus again. The way back to dorm or to campus will takes something like 30 minutes including the waiting time and even longer if I miss a campus bus.

That's why I can't online so often since I can hardly back to my room. And, usually the time i back to my room, it will be something like 9 to 10 o'clock and sleeping will be the only thing i would like to do.

Ok, I fed up with blogging in English. My writing sucks and it can't really express what I wanna to say.

好，回到华语的世界。在这里生活还真得很累，每天就早上7点多8点出门，然后回到房的时候，已经是晚上了。回到房的时候，心里想得就只有躺下休息，什么都不想做了。这两天，买了很多东西，也办好了不少东西，生活上的东西。电话，枕头，被单，食物，厨房器具，电器，需要买的大多数都买了。这里的市场，在四天里，就去了两趟。但是，需要的，大多数都买了。花了不少钱，但是什么都有了，以后也不用再怎样花了。

这两天，都是orientation，都在去听学校的一切一切。有够闷的说，但是自己还是乖乖的全部都去，因为深怕漏了什么重要的资讯。今天，早上，就是英语考试。生涩的英语，许久没动笔，让我在30分钟里面只能写了半篇作文，心想应该得拿英文课了。过后，下午还有个面试。在面试前，我有了3-4小时的空档。与朋友在校园内走了走，然后，终于在这里吃到了第一口饭！一间华人餐厅，在校园内。价钱还不至于贵，就跟普通的一餐一样。在之前吃这里的汉堡时，觉得美国人的分量还好。但是，在这间华人餐厅，我明明就买了一份一个人的套餐，但是感觉上怎样吃都吃不完的说。第一次觉得，这里的分量真的很多。

之后，再与朋友一起去逛了校园的市镇区。很多店面，但是大多数都是吃的占多，然后都很贵的说。我们完全不敢进去。最后，跟住学校给得的资讯，找到了一间二手店。走下去的时候，感觉很像走进另外一个世界似的，有种难闻的味道，在我一开门时就冲进鼻子了。而且，那间店还是地下室的说。感觉真得很像走进了一个黑暗区的说。

在那里，只买了一双拖鞋（不是二手的），然后什么都没买就与朋友走了。在走了一会后，朋友买了雪糕，然后我就跟其他朋友会去学校里面试。等了好久，全部人都面试完了，才轮到我。进去时，并没有丝毫的紧张。也可能有吧，因为在进去后，突然对温度很敏感，很容易觉得冷，也许这就是我在紧张时的感应吧，对全部东西都很敏感。整个面试都很像聊天似的，但是发抖着的我，脑袋怎样都不是很能转，结果感觉上好像毁了整个面试。惨了~又要拿多一个英文班！我可是对我的英语会话很有信心地说。我哭~

我面试完后，就与朋友搭巴士下去镇里的超级市场购物。买了一些必需品，抱着就回了。但是，真得很累。说起来，感觉很像没有做了什么，但是在这里生活真得很累。感觉时间好像过得很慢，4天就好像1个月的说。

回到家，什么都没吃就倒下去睡了。第二个没有晚餐的一天。

太累了。